28 2 / 2012
2.28.2012
He thinks another girl is prettier than me. He admitted it to a lot of people. He doesn’t know that I know what he’s done. I wish he knew that every time he hooks up with or fucks another girl, that it makes me want to purge or take laxatives that much more. Why cant I be pretty enough for him? When I find out who this bitch is I swear to god that I will fucking make her life hell. That’s allllll xoxoxooxox
15 2 / 2012
2.15.2012
Haven’t posted in awhile because so much has been going on. Time to vent and let it all out. First of all, I’ve let myself go…. like a lot. I’ve gained back all the weight I lost which is like 6 pounds. It’s so depressing. I just stopped caring about how I look, but now is when I should care the most. Having sex with BC makes me miserable because the whole time im literallly thinking of how fat and huge i must look. I just want to be so skinny and tiny. For him…. and me of course. If I was skinny and tiny then he might date me…just maybe. He wants a gf, but he doesn’t want me as his gf. I sware to god he sees me as an object. He thinks of me as a hot girl, who has no feelings or problems, who he can fuck when he feels like hooking up or fucking somone. It depresses me so much and its all i think about. My new obsession is constantly thinking about him and what he thinks of me. I just want to be perfect for him. I just want him to know that I’m always there for him and I can be exactly what he wants, a loving and caring gf. He likes to play games with my head. He will call me baby and babe, he will buy me flowers on valentines day, he will tell me he misses me and he wants to be with me, but he says and does all that and then doesnt ask me out. WHAT THE FUCCCCCKKKKKKK like honest to god im so sick of it. I cry everyday because of him. ugh this sucks. why can’t i just move on? i’ve fallen way to hard for this kid……….. if a new guy comes along showing interest in me i sware to god that I will leave BC’s ass so quick that he will wish he had asked me out when he had the chance. so new guy where ya attt?!?! uhm yeah thats bascically my life right now….
14 2 / 2012
41106) Wanting to die after counting up the calories you ingurgitate during the day.
(Source: confessionsabouteatingdisorders)
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